Running On Empty

For the longest now I’ve been feeling completely defeated in life. It’s not like life is going horribly wrong right now. in fact I just started school again, spending the summer doing activities with my daughter, and connecting with people.However, I feel completely alone, sad, and done. I can’t shake the feeling no matter what I do or who I talk to. Seems like no one can say the right thing. I get so low I feel like everyone and everything would just be better if I was gone. Sometimes I feel forgotten by friends or only needed at certain times and then left to rot. I know my daughter needs me all the time, I know she loves me and I know I need to always be there for her…..but I feel like I’m failing her too. Like I’m just not enough for her. I could have done better. I get so frustrated with her when she’s always talking to me and bugging me about stuff, but it’s me, not her. I just feel like I want to be alone……………but then I really don’t because I hate being alone. Alone is when I think….my mind isn’t kind to me. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve always had hope, tried to be positive, just now it all seems to be fading away and I could care less.  I’m about at the end of the road here. I don’t know which way to go anymore.

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